What is it that compels my mind to think of things that are only based on hope and speculation?
This has been my experience so far.
For several weeks now I had hoped and speculated about a possible new job, only to learn today that it was all in vain. The job was never on offer. It was due to recent changes that I imagined that there would be an opening for me to gain the position I wanted. The thing is, there was never an opening for it, it was already presumed filled by another. The only reason I entertained ideas about it, was based on commentary that I’d received from a colleague.
So in all effect, my mind has been in overdrive, constantly focused on a possibility of an imagining becoming a reality. The imagining of my working relationships with the people around me. The imagining of how much I was going to love being on that job. Alas, it was not meant to be.
The thing with my mind is that when I have a strong focus on something, it won’t let up. I start to imagine my thoughts as if they are real, to the point that I believe in my imagination. This only sets me up for a major let down. All of my own making.
Thankfully, I don’t do this too often. It seems to creep up on me from time to time, coupled with lots of wishful thinking. I should invest my focus and energy on things that I have more control over and not on whimsicality’s.